Three months

Well, it's been 2 days over 3 months since Trevor died. I still have trouble believing that he has. I'm currently just beginning to scrapbook the last day of his life. I've done up to the party we had in ICU the day before he died. It's going to get harder as I get towards the end but I feel the need to get these pictures taken care of. I'm now thinking ahead to doing other events in his life that haven't been done yet. It will be nice to work on happier pictures.

I still just have 2 children for respite. One is here for the 2nd time and will be back again next week. The other has just come for 1 weekend so far. He slept in Trevor's bed and room and I was fine with that, even when he made sounds like Trevor did. Both boys are a joy to have and quite different from Trevor. I continue to wait to hear of someone more long term. I'm hoping to be able to continue to do respite for a few children even after I have someone permanent. I always feel better when I have someone to take care of.

In the meantime God has given me the gift of being in touch with a young girl who I looked after when she was a baby and into childhood. I'd had no contact with her since her family moved away a number of years ago. But starting with the email I sent the family when Trevor died I've started having contact with Carly. And, since I started using facebook we've been chatting most days. She talked me in to getting a webcam and MSN messenger so now she and I can watch each other doing things. She likes to watch me sit and scrapbook. It makes me realize how little time I actually sit in one spot when there's a camera watching me. It's really been a gift to be in touch with her again.

The bed!!!!

This is a picture of the enclosed bed I was given to use with kids for respite who need it. The only problem with it was that it was delivered to me in pieces with no hardware and no instructions!!!!! Fortunately my pastor was able to give up his day off and help me get it figured out. As you can see it's solid and very heavy. It might work better against a wall but there's no way it can be moved. I hope it doesn't need to come down any time soon. This is what I was thinking of making in to a tent or fort for kids who are more alert who might sleep in it. I don't want them to think of it as a "cage".